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Hi my name is Nick and I am a 15 year old openly gay male and this is my story:

When i was in 2nd grade i was always hangin around girls, never any attraction to them, just always had friends that were girls. I mean all throughout elementary school and up to now the only good friends that I have are girls. When I was in 6th grade, I went out with a girl for the first time, even though I did not feel like I liked her like other guys liked their girlfriends, and I started to look at guys in a whole different way. At first I could not accept it and could never think how me, mr. popular could look at guys that way. I tried to deny it and covered it up by going out with all these girls until 7th grade came.

I really noticed then that I was gay, I never looked at a girl the way most guys do. I looked at guys like most girls do. I really started to accept it then and really liked the lifestyle, accept I did not want to come out yet. People started to wonder when they saw me look at guys or never go out with a girl and I got a lot of questions from people. I even got questions from my best friend and I denied it to her as well.

Towards the start of 8th grade I knew for a fact that I was gay and decided that it was time that I should come out, so I did. The hardest thing is when my parents approached me about it and did not let me decide the time to come out, they said that they wanted the honest truth if I was gay or not, so I softened the blow by telling them that I was bi. They did not react how I thought they would. My Dad sorta shrugged it off and thought that it is my decision and he should not try and stop that (which surprised me a lot) and my Mom flipped on me, told me that I needed counseling and everything. So I did I went to counseling and nothing changed there...but I think after that my Mom got over the fact of me being gay and accepted it.

I got mixed reactions from the people at school. Some guys were fine with it, others weren't, I think if anything I got a lot more guy friends after coming out, and I got a lot of people to accept it. Then we moved. We moved from a glorious huge city to a small pathetic town, and I faced the fact of making new friends. I never did think for one second of coming out here because it is so small of a school and I did not know how people would react to it...so I didn't, for about two weeks. I decided that if I was going to come out it was now, because I did not want to get close friends and have them blow me off for being gay. So I did I came out openly to a few people and it spread like wildfire. I finally am totally out now and everyone knows. Most everyone is fine with it, most all the girls are, but not guys. There are those selected few that accept it and I think those are the people that are secure with themselves.

Sorry for this story being so long, but I have never had an opportunity to tell it. I will keep an update in my diary about this under nick14253. If you read through this, thank you, and I hope that my story will give you an idea about coming out if you are not out already.