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It was going to be the best birthday ever! My parents were driving my friend Maddie, Tara and I to Chicago so we could go see Chicago the musical. All three of us were completely obsessed with the musical and couldn't wait to go see it live. The whole way there we were singing songs from the show and talking about a lot of different things, mostly boys. Tara was the only straight one among the three of us, and Maddie is bi. Although neither Maddie or I are out so we couldn't talk about that in the car. So both of them talked about different boys they had kissed or wanted to go out with while I just sat silent, secretly wishing that I could go out with Maddie. I had been crushing on her for at least a year.

We were going to spend the night in a hotel room that day then my parents were going to drop us off at the show the next day. All we really wanted to do was lie around the hotel room watching movies that night. At around 1am we started talking about girls. Tara was pretty intrigued by the fact that Maddie and I both liked girls, and kept suggesting we kissed each other. I wanted to kiss Maddie so much she was so pretty that night, just as she was every time I see her. I knew she wouldn't kiss me though; we had been through it all before that we would keep everything on a friend level only as much as it disappointed me.

Tara wanted to ask us some questions about liking girls and we told her go ahead, but I guess we were talking a little bit too loud and none of us realized because we heard the door from the next hotel room open and close, where my parents were staying, and within seconds there was a knock on our door. We all looked at each other hoping they hadn't heard what we were talking about. My heart was racing when I went to open the door because I really wasn't ready to come out yet.

I opened the door and there was my mother standing there with a look I'd never seen from my mom. It was pretty obvious she had over heard our conversation but she looked so surprised. After about two minutes of her standing there without anyone saying anything, I finally said "did you want to tell us anything?" all she said was "oh, um just be quieter and go to sleep soon."

We went to sleep right away, Maddie ended up holding me I'll night, though I'm still not sure how that ended up happening. My parents never said anything more about what happened even though I know that they know, but maybe silence is their way of accepting it. Either way I'm fortunate that it turned out the way it did, it could have been worse. Plus Chicago was a really great show!